„ScapeGod“, the debut album of my former band PHILIAE was released nearly 20 years ago. It was sold out a long time ago and was never meant to be re-released which was fine for me. When me and the band split ways we did not leave each other on good terms. Back then, after being injured as collateral damage in an assault during the red-light-district-war in my hometown hood, and its following psychological aftermath, which lead me into the usual chemical downward spiral, I was a broken soul and this album was both a syndrome and a cure. But when I left PHILIAE I was happy to leave this dark side of mine back then and start something new. Many years have passed since then and I look back at these times now with delight and pleasure. Although me and my old band mates have never clarified our dispute I always feel happy when I meet one of them accidentaly. And only the good memories remain. Maybe when all of this is over here we should sit down and talk. Because back then I did not only loose my band I also lost my closest friend that I had this time.
Since all of us are staying at home right now, I decided to upload the whole album for all of you to listen to. It might not be the best production or the most perfect songs, but it’s a true and honest mirror of and a valve for my darkest and most desperate times, written, recorded and worked on for a long time with all the passion we had back then. My first ever album with my first ever band. An album which I learned to love again.
And what I have startet with LOTL as a solo project in 2007, was the logical sequel to PHILIAE. Going back home where I was coming from.
