Video directed by Rachel Gieck and Danielle Holinda
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lyrics:
I am not living and I don’t really know what voice to listen to because none of this shit in my head is even really giving me a choice.
I am not giving in
I am not part of it
And I don’t really care how high you got to make your heart heartless.
I was just as drunk
So we can just argue bout how we want nothing
And my pains the best
So let me get this off of my flat chest.
Let me get this out of my privilege where my parents pay for all of my shit
And I had this vision it was like lithium
But I took it too seriously like an idiot
Now I’m gonna in oblivion
Now I’m gone in oblivion
You had a nice condominium
Nice that you didn’t use a condom
Nice that you gave me so many drugs that I couldn’t even take off my own armour
But you’re the one who’s honest
Im the novice
You’re the prophet and I’m the product
And I’m the process that you wanted and how ironic
Its so bubonic
What’s it like in that fucking office
With a life that’s so fucking polished
You told me to look passed my hell
but what you do you want from me
Every time I ask myself I answer honestly
I am not the night that you said good bye
I am not the life that will pass you by
So maybe you should find yourself
And come talk to me
Come talk to me
And the truth is I’m still afraid
All of this shit effects me everyday
And I tell myself its okay
Get out of bed take a big breath
Light a new match and pretend its the same its an honour to have all this life that I claim
And I just want to change
Don’t want to stay under the earth for the rest of my days
FUCK what they say
I am amazing
Gone flames blazing
And its dynamite and no small fry
Look at these eyes
Im still alive
I will still fight until the day I die
Never good bye no ties
And I got all this time
Don’t wanna lie
Don’t wanna waste not finding the sky
Who knew that id make it through
I fucking did its what I do
No noose in my bedroom
Cause I will never loose
And I will choose to stay alive
Even though I didn’t want to
Yeah no noose in my bedroom
Cause I will never loose
And I will choose to stay alive even though I didn’t want to
You told me to look passed my hell
But what you do want from me
Every time I ask myself I answer honestly
I am not the night that you said good bye
I am not the life that will pass you by
So maybe you should find yourself
And come talk to me
Come talk to me