I forgot to mention this in the video, but if any of you are in the same situation as me or something similar and would like somebody to talk to, please do not hesitate to send me a message.
January hit me like a bullet train
I never wanted to run so fast
I thought I locked all my demons away
Brace myself for the next attack
I'm sorry i'm ignoring you
I don't even know what's going on to tell the truth
The sun don't even make me wanna move
From this fucking bed where I drown in my head
There's a bad thing inside of me
Thanks for waiting patiently
While I'm swimming through an open sea
With this bad thing inside of me
There are nights I can't find reasons
So I do things I regret
I've been careless and found myself sinking
Under the sheets of a stranger's bed
This is when I feel like i'm gonna blow
Is it bad that I feel best with a finger down my throat?
Weaker by the second, and you don't even know
I'm scared if you find out you might go
It's not easy pretending i'm ok
It's not easy hoping that you'll stay
It's not easy pretending i'm ok at all